Whats wrong with me please ans 10 points?

Harry Walia Asked: Whats wrong with me please ans 10 points?

Well i virtually have no
friends from my college
except 2-3 school friends
whom i talk on phone
once a month or two and
meet once a year or may
not cause they dont live in
the same city and have
job.
I messed up my carrier
big time with some col
friends on alcohol and
bunking etc and couldnt
get my degree last year.
Not in contact wid any
college friend as most
have gone to other cities
and have jobs in big
companys.
For 1 year 1 have been
sitting at home alone my
family doest respect my
opinion and always blame
me for every thing be it
spoiled milk or when i
give my opinion on
anything.
I offen go into depression
on one or the other thing
they say to me like some
random person geting
that much salary or y
your friends have left you
alone they dont visit for
witch i have no ans and
close my self in the room
for day or two without
food or water.
And the cycle goes on
Now plz lisen to the real
problem after one year i
gave the exam to get my
degree and i know i am
gona fail and i cant live
with that scared what
tantrum my parents will
trow.
And gettin suisidal lately
or planing to run away
some where.
The only thing in my life is
my pet roos and they will
be trown out dont know
wat to do being trying to
get a job any job but
could not and only a
month for the exam result
and i dont think will live
dat long .plz help wid a
sol dont wanna die ;-(