muslims plz help me with this thing?

Mohammad Khawar Asked: muslims plz help me with this thing?

Ok long before i use to help non muslims to become muslims in yahoo but once i read an answer which got so much to me but i didn't believe in that answer but later i learned the meaning of shirk i started crying cos i was afraid of it later i started having these fake things in my head like he/she is God i know that it wasn't true so i just ignored it a lot i know satan was putting that in my head.Later i got so obsessed with shirk thingy and tried hard not to do it i once ACCIDENTILY said something shirk i started crying but later my parents told me that don't worry shirk is done when u really mean what u say and that thinking isn;t shirk if u say the words out of ur mouth that is shirk .Later in my head it keeps coming like wow how can u know islam is the true region there r soo many other region then i ignored that thought again,But later when i was in school my head kept telling this :- Jesus is God U believe that and i was keep saying shut up in my head and started crying lil bit then when i was writting something i opened my mouth just to read what is written on the black board and things started coming in my mind like this:- oh u said the words u did shirk now uwill burn in hell.Then i started getting thoughts like wow now u believe in jesus i kept saying in my head "Shut Up".And i am sure that i never believed in jesus as God cos i pray to Allah and if i get those feelings i don't say them out of my mouth cos i know that it is shirk so i am sure that i never believed in Jesus in that way.these things keeps coming in my head my head starts paining i cry,Today when i was in my class i while i was writting i knew that these things will come back in my head.So i started thinking on purpose that jesus is God then i said in my head Shut up again my mouth was close when i started thinking like this so i didn't do shirk ryt? And also plz help me to get these thoughts out of my head is there any dua or a spell ?i try many dua but nothing helps me i wish i never came to know the meaning of shirk i am sure that i never did shirk.But in my head it says "Wow u believe in Jesus" i say one dua and my soul rest in piece so i am sure that i didn't do shirk cos other wise my soul wouldn't have rested in piece.BTW REMEMBER I NEVER WANNA DO SHIRK I NEVER EVER WANNA DO SHIRK BUT THE FEAR OF SHIRK IN MY HEART IS RESPONSIBLE FOR THESE THINGS